I have a lot to consider. I'm really good at pushing people away and I'm not sure if I want people anyway but I need people. That's why I'm so miserable. Everything inside of me is so conflicting. I want people to like me but at the same time, I don't trust them if they do. Very few of my friendships nowadays have substance and past friendships are rapidly disintegrating.
I don't know, I have a lot to think about, even if thinking about it makes it even worse. Everything is so black and white.
It's probably just that everyone is growing apart and growing up except for me. I keep all the memories of past friendships in my head and I can't get over how I'm stuck, not growing.
Anyway, I've been playing Pokemon Diamond and I'm really obsessed with it and it makes me feel better.
Gloom can be my friend!! ;~:
-m
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